it’s more like double-hearted. it suddenly occurs to me that i feel have two like i hearts. except that i don’t. i have one – and there is a battle for it.
paul said “for i do not understand my own actions. for i do not do what i want, but i do the very thing i hate.” (romans 7:15 esv)
i once heard someone preach that he did not think that we are dual-natured and i think that’s just crazy. i want to read my bible and i want to be lazy and watch television. i want to go for a run and i want to sleep in. my flesh wants one thing and my spirit cries out for another.
so which nature wins? i was thinking about this earlier today and how i thought that the answer was to kill the flesh. now, that’s a great answer and certainly life and maturity require self-discipline, which requires us to kill our flesh and make hard decisions for our own good. but as i was listening to the onething webcast tonight and worshiping, my heart is convinced that the answer is not to rage a battle against that which i do not want, but rather to fall in love with that which i desire. because love wins over my heart like no battle against anything can.
hunger is a funny thing because we crave that which we consume. so i rest assured that my Jesus loves me and all i need to do is to come before Him. the more i love Him, the less i will love other things, for He is a consuming fire.